Stalking apparently has it's perks. A few friends of mine apparently stalk their crushes or the people who they think are cute and what do you know...one of my friends found a miracle. Her crush apparently noticed her and started talking to her. She was ecstatic. Jumping around and squealing like a little pig is the apparent actions that she's doing now. I feel happy for her because she deserves the happiness and the joy. Ahh...the joys of having a crush and stalking them.

You know what feels even better? Having a crush and the crush having a crush on you too, but that only happens in our dreams and imagination. They say that sometimes dreams come true but I don't apply that into my life as it has never happen to me before. Maybe I'm just being mean by telling people to believe in dreams and having false hope, but it's the truth. Some people need a reality check and stop living in dreamland. Some people believe in fairytales and happily ever after, I have nothing against that or them since it's their choice to believe in whatever they want. Living in dreamland can be fun but sometimes living in reality is better.

Looking at the couples around me cuddling or hugging makes me miss the days that I used to have that. Sometimes I wonder how it was going to be if i didn't break up with him. Sometimes I wonder how's he's doing. It's normal to feel that way since it's human nature. I look back at the days we shared and sometimes cringe at what we did. It's funny because I use to believed in happily ever after. He made me really happy but in the end the one who was heartbroken was me (even though I was the one who broke up with him). I don't mind it now because I'm moving on and I don't miss him as much as I did before, but truthfully...

We say we're fine but we're not. We smile on the outside but we're broken on the inside. We laugh along but that isn't our real laugh. Broken people are hard to fix unless they find someone who can piece them back together. It could be a family member or a best friend, it could be anyone. It just has to be someone who cares and someone who is willing to stay even though you push them away, but the most important thing is that broken person stand up by themselves. Telling themselves that it's a good day and it's okay. It's okay to be sad and it's okay to be broken, but you or anyone deserves happiness. So just remember, no matter how hard it gets...

It's going to be alright.

~xoxo~

R